Silence

well at first it was it was different but when i started to copy it down on this page here well i kinda changed it heavily and now it sounds more like suicide than suicidal thoughts but anyways

creeping sounds caressing my ears
faces of the night seem to disappear
the heart beats with sorrow
despair grows seem to be know tomorrow

this stage is my final act
hear is were ill make my final pact
i struggle to keep it up with you
closing my eyes and i still see you

here is were the daylight fades
darkness consuming me with mortal shades
please forgive me for my dark clouds
raining down my fears and doubts

falling into the depths of the sea
could those be the tides that set me free
from these demons in my mind
and the troubles i plan to leave behind

hollow words of dying roses
colors of the mind it exposes
visions of love and hate
tumbling to my lamentable death
could i finally hear her on my final breath

Music

now this is the result of listening to music and reading a quote about it

noise after noise
and silence in between
creates colors
something unseen
music starts to breath into you
it starts to charm
the beasts inside you
the mind calm to the
thoughts that appeal you

let me re invent
these thoughts for you
re invent this
love inside you
submit to me
beautiful friend
coz there is nothing more
this is the end

She Is Gone

now this had less feeling in it not many emotions coz at this point she wasnt actually gone i just wrote this coz my frnd said i shud write about it coz that is what wud happen later on

standing all alone i remember the days
when i used to look at you
and see a whole new face and
a completely new love is born inside me

this love is dying on the inside
it aint a pretty site
love is power happiness and everything in between
your my source of reason my queen

as emptiness fills me
gallows are haunting me
reason tries to convince me
but sometimes the heart wins over

as i drown darkness consuming me
i came to the fact that
there is not another way to live
i rather just die coz i don't want to leave you

i have only a few words to say to you
but im afraid is up for you
u had to leave i couldn't believe it was all over
now that she is gone its all over

Doors

basically i wrote this while i read about the doors (band)

traveling in darkness
a long road sinks in my eyes
wooden doors in my head
holding something back
from inside me a light shines
eager thoughts of love and hate

my mind tries to project the thoughts
these doors need some sorta key
staring at the key like its so divine
soon doors will open
maybe then ull see the truth in me

increasing your knowledge bit by bit
breaking your strength bit by bit
these doors are way between
all that known and all that we cannot see

these doors in my brain keep me far from sane
this universe held back from reach
break these doors down opening them wont do
its destruction  we want so all can see
through these doors

Sound

this was basically a random poem i mean i was studying physics in skool and i kept asking my frnd to give me an idea for a poem coz i was out he was annoyed so he just said sound refering to the physics chapter we were studying and well this is it  the outcome

silence in my mind
growing silence
burnt shades
regrets are many but with no escape
wilting in the half lights of my life
insufficient silence burns through my head

my mind works like clock work
trying to create colours in my life
a jerk stops me in my steps
as i float into the depths

meaning is different for everyone
but i cant find even one
finally i muster the will
to breath in life to the dead
to find sound in silence

Our Planet

something i picked up while listning to planet caravan by black sabbath its though not a nexact coppy but the first para is borrowed

we sail through endless skys
stars shine like ur bright eyes
the moon in an orbital blaze
of saphire haze

traveling together in a endless space
floating amongst the stars
taking on each other as
the stars bring silver sunshine
makes your skin glow
as we travel through the universe

our love is a bond between stars
the moon glows for weeks in our minds
as we sail in our ships
a journey of two
an odyssey across the universe
and as we finally find a place for us

the moon glows endless
this ship carries us far away
as we finally found a place for us
time never stops as this never ends
just like love that will never bend
as we travel through the universe

The Element

this was like my first one so it sucks basically i dont even knw what i felt when writing this poem its just random words with this vague idea that its all connected

A destructive element takes over your mind
you need to pull it out
after the pain is gone
u can see only red
but red is forever
if only you want it to be

take pill calm your nerves let your  senses guide you home
its not like u have anything else but ur self anymore
its these pains in your head melted into your bone

is it really possible we can bring red up again
share it with ourselves
our colours make this new love
ornaments our past lives but jewels are new
forever in a pact never broken never made
 

Death Wish

i think this will be my most famous death metal song an anthem

not my happiest of days this is one of those days in which all the pressures broke down on me shitty frnds hypocritical family rejection by her and of course the exams that had been going on for months with no breaks but turned all that hate to a song/poem  so its good

Burning my insides a hatred consumes
tiered and broken living life confused
just like the last time i went through this phase

a killing rage inside my brain
suicide on my mind
cant this end with rage

please god take me now i dont wish to live
months have passed
as i drowned in pain
havent i suffered enough
why dosent this all end

i cant deny
that my faith is gone
i wont deny
that im broken weak
i know that i
cannot carry on alone
leave this life
i just want to die

i waited so long
i tried so hard
cant get you  out of my bed
like a bloody knife in my head
an endless pain
is all ive gained
this black hatred im tied to
im broken i gave it all
why dont i just roll over and die

when all hope was gone
i still carried on for you
i know i wont last long
searching for some hope
all this time

im left hear faithless hopless ashamed
waiting for silence a home set flame
a time to feel so lonley full of shame
eternal slumbers all i need this cant be carried no more

pale horse rider
burning hell fire
envelop me as i just want to be set free
oh god forgive me for i was to bold
oh the blody grim reaper come reap my soul

Dust

just something i cooked up while hearing this random song on the comp as u can see its heavily influenced allot by into dust by mazzy star and shares a similar concept
 any who


 my gaze hovering over to you
my insides turn and rumbel
as im trying to see straight thru the fog
illusions made by ur thoughts

all these things are turning me into dust
fading in ur presence is what u taught
for i have fear as ur knw so near to me
this feeling welming me as i turn to dust

i tried to cap illusions
but these days i have delusions
thinking of what to do without you

decided today that the cold winds
can sweep away
i sometimes find it hard to see
capture all of that beauty

all i needed
was someone to catch me
as u fall breathless
when i gaze to you
watching you from far today

my hand shook whith fear
any moment ill turn into dust
my existance growing colder
as i turn to ashes once again
it was u who made me breathless and torn
it was u who turned me into dust
i am nothing to compare to
with u i turn to dust

idea aint original words are and feeling are